I won't

I won't allowed myself to burst another tears for you

I won't allowed myself to cried every single night because of your attitude and behavior

I won't allowed myself to regrets everything that i did in the past that cause this

I won't allowed myself to let this guilty feelings come over even for a second

I won't allowed myself to burst a single tears for everything that happen between August 2014 until now

I won't allowed myself to grief over you

I won't allowed myself to continue hope that someday you'll change to the old you

I won't allowed myself to react emotionally for every single thing you do because i know that exactly what you want me to do

I won't allowed myself to react dramatically when you already decided to leave this marriage

I won't allowed myself to hear what everyone said about i am wrong about choosing you as my husband because i was never wrong about you but somehow in the middle of the journey, you were lost and can't find a way home

I won't allowed myself to stuck in the old memories about what we used to be.

I won't allowed myself to look weak in front of everyone that underestimated about you and me

I won't allowed myself to cried over you when I should know better that you already planning something without me

I won't allowed myself to burst another tears in front of me.

Believe me when i said : it's easy for me to forget my feelings towards you and this marriages.

Just keep doing whatever you did right now, and before you know it's too late.

You won't see me again because i will disappears from your live for good.

Don't bother to cut me off from your life because i will personally erase you from my life

That's my promise