Can't I just take some rest, Please ?

أَسْتَغْفِرُ اللّٰهَ‎ 

I am about this close to loose my sanity. Why this whole thing constantly non stop. 

Every damn day there's a new trouble between this circle. 

Why don't any of them let me to catch my breath for a while. 

I am well aware that I am the eldest and I had lots of responsibility for everything, but I am kinda overwhelmed right now.  

To say that I am overwhelmed is underrated because I am more than overwhelmed.

Here I am trying to get my life back from scratch, but I can't focus because every damn day there will be a new "challenge"

When I thought ah okay, one challenge is completed now it's time for me to focus on myself.

Oh boy, I was so damn wrong. 

It's a never ending vicious cycle from one challenge to another challenge.

How I am gonna focus on my life if this vicious cycle continued like this

Can't I just take some rest, PLEASE ?