Kulihat taman bunga yang terbentang luas dihadapan
Berbagai macam bunga hadir disana menambah semerbak harumnya taman
Tak hanya bunga tapi ada juga kupu-kupu, kumbang, lebah dan kawan-kawan
Padang bunga yang terhampar dihadapan tapi mengapa yang terlihat adalah padang pasir yang tak berujung, bahkan kupu-kupu, lebah, kumbang, dan kawan-kawannya pun segan untuk sekadar bersantai disana
Oase yang tampak dari kejauhan yang seakan mampu mengatasi kekeringan di padang pasir kemudian berubah menjadi sekumpulan fatamorgana yang teramat menyakitkan
Berlari kesana kemari seolah ingin membuktikan bahwa ada segerombolan pengembara yang kebetulan melintas di padang pasir
Ketika melihat segerombolan pengembara dari kejauhan, tetapi ketika semakin dekat semakin nyata bahwa itu hanyalah pantulan dari bayangan yang tak nyata
Padang bunga yang terhampar dihadapan tetapi mengapa padang pasir yang terlihat dimata
Apakah fatamorgana ataukah ilusi sesaat?
Ketika akhirnya bertemu segerombolan pengembara dan mengajukan pertanyaan apakah ini padang bunga ataukah padang pasir?
Gerombolan pengembara berkata maafkan kami karena apa yang sebenarnya terhampar di hadapan kisanak adalah padang pasir tak berujung
Sungguh jauh perjalanan yang harus kisanak tempuh untuk mencapai padang bunga
Tetapi bila kisanak telah sampai disana, perjuangan panjangmu untuk mencapai padang bunga menjadi sangat manis
Oase yang kisanak liat dari kejauhan itu hanyalah ilusi dan fatamorgana
Maafkan kami kisanak jika jawaban yang diberikan membuat kisanak nelangsa tapi kami hanya ingin agar kisanak berjuang lebih dan lebih giat lagi
Kisanak hanya menghela nafas dan berkata : berapa lamakah perjalanan ke padang bunga?
Apa yang nanti akan kutemui sepanjang perjalanan?
Rintangan apa yang akan menghadang selama perjalanan menuju padang bunga?
Apa yang akan kutemui nanti di padang bunga?
Apakah aku akan menemui fatamorgana dan ilusi sepanjang perjalanan?
Apakah perjuangan menuju padang bunga sepadan dengan hasil akhir yang kelak kudapat?
Sang pengembara hanya berkata : maafkan kami kisanak, karena pertanyaan kisanak tidak dapat kami jawab...
Kisanak sendiri yang harus menjalaninya dan kisanak sendiri yang kelak akan memetik buah perjuangan kisanak...
Selamat berjuang kisanak....
Semoga beruntung....
Gerombolan pengembara kemudian pergi meninggalkan kisanak yang harus menempuh perjalanan panjang menuju padang bunga....
Entah apa yang akan terjadi nantinya...
Kisanak bertekad bulat akan berjuang sekuat tenaga demi hasil akhir...
Apapun hasil akhirnya, aku yakin bahwa semua sudah tersurat untukku *batin kisanak*
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Lost
Lost....
Lost in some place that couldn't found it on the map....
Suddenly get stuck in some familiar old habit....
Gosh....
Never thought this disease would come back...
Why is that disturbing disease come back without giving announcement first?
Why that disease suddenly pop up out of nowhere?
What happen?
Why that disease back again?
Why?
What i should do with that disturbing disease?
Gosh....
Don't like being the bad person and criminal stuff but why that disease has to come back right now when i thought that disturbing disease will never ever come back....
I've heard and acknowledge that honesty are the right thing to do even that will be painful enough....
What should i do with that annoying disease.....
Ya Allah, please give me the sign, the clue, the answer for this...
Apapun yang akan terjadi (entah itu pahit, asam, manis, buruk, asin, pedas), insya allah aku akan siap menanggung konsekuensinya....
Bismillah
Lost in some place that couldn't found it on the map....
Suddenly get stuck in some familiar old habit....
Gosh....
Never thought this disease would come back...
Why is that disturbing disease come back without giving announcement first?
Why that disease suddenly pop up out of nowhere?
What happen?
Why that disease back again?
Why?
What i should do with that disturbing disease?
Gosh....
Don't like being the bad person and criminal stuff but why that disease has to come back right now when i thought that disturbing disease will never ever come back....
I've heard and acknowledge that honesty are the right thing to do even that will be painful enough....
What should i do with that annoying disease.....
Ya Allah, please give me the sign, the clue, the answer for this...
Apapun yang akan terjadi (entah itu pahit, asam, manis, buruk, asin, pedas), insya allah aku akan siap menanggung konsekuensinya....
Bismillah
Monday, February 08, 2010
Broken Hearted
Artist : Beyonce
Lirik Lagu : Beyonce - Broken-Hearted Girl Lyrics
Beyonce - Broken-Hearted Girl Lyrics
You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day
I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out
You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day
I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....
I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
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Akhir-akhir ini jadi sering banget dengerin lagu ini... *ngga ngerti juga kenapa bisa begitu*
I love this song a lot, seolah segala curahan dan jeritan hati yang selama ini tersembunyi perlahan terkuak ke permukaan *bahasanya makin serem*
Penyakit lama yang dah ngga pernah kambuh tapi sekarang mendadak kambuh *ngga ngerti juga kenapa malah kambuh sekarang*
Entah kenapa dan mengapa harus kambuh kembali...
Right now, theres nothing i can do to make this thing go away...
I hate this kinda feeling and why its keep coming back *hmfftttttttt*
I am very grateful for everything that happen in my life lately but somehow deep down inside of me theres something missing, sadly i just can't figure it out yet....
Ya Allah, Please give me the answer that I've been dying to search for...
Apapun jawabannya, petunjuk dan pertandanya, ka yakin kalo itu semua adalah yang terbaik buat dika
Manusia boleh berencana tetapi hasil akhir ada ditangan Allah swt
Apapun yang terjadi, ka harus siap dengan segala konsekuensinya
Bismillah
Lirik Lagu : Beyonce - Broken-Hearted Girl Lyrics
Beyonce - Broken-Hearted Girl Lyrics
You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day
I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out
You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day
I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....
I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
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Akhir-akhir ini jadi sering banget dengerin lagu ini... *ngga ngerti juga kenapa bisa begitu*
I love this song a lot, seolah segala curahan dan jeritan hati yang selama ini tersembunyi perlahan terkuak ke permukaan *bahasanya makin serem*
Penyakit lama yang dah ngga pernah kambuh tapi sekarang mendadak kambuh *ngga ngerti juga kenapa malah kambuh sekarang*
Entah kenapa dan mengapa harus kambuh kembali...
Right now, theres nothing i can do to make this thing go away...
I hate this kinda feeling and why its keep coming back *hmfftttttttt*
I am very grateful for everything that happen in my life lately but somehow deep down inside of me theres something missing, sadly i just can't figure it out yet....
Ya Allah, Please give me the answer that I've been dying to search for...
Apapun jawabannya, petunjuk dan pertandanya, ka yakin kalo itu semua adalah yang terbaik buat dika
Manusia boleh berencana tetapi hasil akhir ada ditangan Allah swt
Apapun yang terjadi, ka harus siap dengan segala konsekuensinya
Bismillah
Friday, January 15, 2010
complicated
Complicated may refers to anything but mostly it show something wrong that need to be taken care so everything would turn normal again
Complicated may turn out to be a sign there something unusual happen that needs to be fixed
But what should i fixed if i didn't know whats wrong that need to fixed?
Everything seems to be normal and perfect in every little detail but deep down i know that something missing even i don't know whats missing
Gosh, i hate this kinda situation...
I am grateful and thankful for everything i had in my life right now, but i just can't ignore the fact that there's something missing in my life
What should i do?
Ya Allah, Please give all the clue and the answer that I've been searching for..
Everything happen for a reason weather its good or bad, i am ready for the consequence...
An adult must and should take full responsibility for his/her own life......
Whatever happen for the decision that I'll take, i am willing to take the consequence..
Bismillah
Complicated may turn out to be a sign there something unusual happen that needs to be fixed
But what should i fixed if i didn't know whats wrong that need to fixed?
Everything seems to be normal and perfect in every little detail but deep down i know that something missing even i don't know whats missing
Gosh, i hate this kinda situation...
I am grateful and thankful for everything i had in my life right now, but i just can't ignore the fact that there's something missing in my life
What should i do?
Ya Allah, Please give all the clue and the answer that I've been searching for..
Everything happen for a reason weather its good or bad, i am ready for the consequence...
An adult must and should take full responsibility for his/her own life......
Whatever happen for the decision that I'll take, i am willing to take the consequence..
Bismillah
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
L.U.L.U.S
Alhamdulillah
Akhirnya penantian selama 3 tahun satu bulan selesai sudah.....
Perjuangan menyelesaikan tesis kelar sudah.....
Sudah selesai tesis diperjuangkan di depan dosen pembimbing dan penguji hohohoho
Tapi perjuangan belum selesai karena harus menyelesaikan revisi hingga akhirnya surat lulus, ijazah dan transkrip nilai keluar sudah....
Sembari menunggu wisuda mencari pekerjaan.....
Siap meraih mimpi-mimpi yang lain...
Alhamdulillah :)
Akhirnya penantian selama 3 tahun satu bulan selesai sudah.....
Perjuangan menyelesaikan tesis kelar sudah.....
Sudah selesai tesis diperjuangkan di depan dosen pembimbing dan penguji hohohoho
Tapi perjuangan belum selesai karena harus menyelesaikan revisi hingga akhirnya surat lulus, ijazah dan transkrip nilai keluar sudah....
Sembari menunggu wisuda mencari pekerjaan.....
Siap meraih mimpi-mimpi yang lain...
Alhamdulillah :)
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah
Tahun ini bertambah banyak karunia dan anugerah yang kuterima...
Sedikit lagi semua mimpi,cita-cita dan harapanku akan segera terwujud di kehidupanku....
Tugas akhir selesai sudah tinggal menunggu jadwal sidang (bikin dag dig duer ajah hiks)
Sudah saatnya mencari kerja impianku dan bertarung dibelantara kehidupan...
Insya allah semester ini, terakhir kali tutor statistik (agak puyeng juga sama statistik dan spss). Sudah saatnya tugas ini di regenerasi karena memang seharusnya demikian...
Beribu terimakasih rasanya tak cukup kuhaturkan kepada dosen-dosen yang selama ini bekerja sama denganku... Semoga bisa bekerja sama di lain waktu...
Tak lupa juga mengucapkan terimakasih kepada partner2 asdos yang lain... Thanks guys...
Untuk semua mahasiswa dan mahasiswi yang pernah ikut kelasku, terima kasih dan mohon maaf jika ada kata-kata, perbuatan yang salah..
*kenapa jadi kayak ngucap perpisahan yach*
Big thanks buat papa, mama dan dimas buat doa dan dukungannya...
Zillion thanks buat jerapah...
Thanks for all the support, kindness...
Pokoknya thanks for everything
Tahun ini bertambah banyak karunia dan anugerah yang kuterima...
Sedikit lagi semua mimpi,cita-cita dan harapanku akan segera terwujud di kehidupanku....
Tugas akhir selesai sudah tinggal menunggu jadwal sidang (bikin dag dig duer ajah hiks)
Sudah saatnya mencari kerja impianku dan bertarung dibelantara kehidupan...
Insya allah semester ini, terakhir kali tutor statistik (agak puyeng juga sama statistik dan spss). Sudah saatnya tugas ini di regenerasi karena memang seharusnya demikian...
Beribu terimakasih rasanya tak cukup kuhaturkan kepada dosen-dosen yang selama ini bekerja sama denganku... Semoga bisa bekerja sama di lain waktu...
Tak lupa juga mengucapkan terimakasih kepada partner2 asdos yang lain... Thanks guys...
Untuk semua mahasiswa dan mahasiswi yang pernah ikut kelasku, terima kasih dan mohon maaf jika ada kata-kata, perbuatan yang salah..
*kenapa jadi kayak ngucap perpisahan yach*
Big thanks buat papa, mama dan dimas buat doa dan dukungannya...
Zillion thanks buat jerapah...
Thanks for all the support, kindness...
Pokoknya thanks for everything
Friday, December 04, 2009
Finally
Finally kelar jugaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
perjuangan untuk menyelesaikan yang tertunda dan meraih cita-cita dan impian yang ingin kuraih..
Meskipun belum full 100% kelar dikarenakan masih menunggu jadwal sidang *hiyahhh deg2an aja gitu dari sekarang*
terus belum lagi kalo nanti ada revisi2... huhuhuhu
Kalo diingat awal mula perjuangannya dimulai *sama sekali ngga menyangka akhirnya bakalan selesai juga*
November 2006 until now...
Dari sidang proposal terakhir bulan april 2009 sampai akhirnya sempat terlupakan untuk menyelesaikan sampai akhirnya begitu mulai mencoba menyelesaikan semuanya *feel amazed when realized it only take 1,5 month to finished the whole detail*
Sekarang berharap-harap cemas menunggu sidang akhir *huhuhu*
Dear mom and Dad, Wish me luck yach *semoga tak ada aral melintang pada saat sebelum sidang, sidang dan sesudah sidang*
Jerapah, thanks ya dah nemenin konsultasi dan ngasih semangad :P
Aminnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
perjuangan untuk menyelesaikan yang tertunda dan meraih cita-cita dan impian yang ingin kuraih..
Meskipun belum full 100% kelar dikarenakan masih menunggu jadwal sidang *hiyahhh deg2an aja gitu dari sekarang*
terus belum lagi kalo nanti ada revisi2... huhuhuhu
Kalo diingat awal mula perjuangannya dimulai *sama sekali ngga menyangka akhirnya bakalan selesai juga*
November 2006 until now...
Dari sidang proposal terakhir bulan april 2009 sampai akhirnya sempat terlupakan untuk menyelesaikan sampai akhirnya begitu mulai mencoba menyelesaikan semuanya *feel amazed when realized it only take 1,5 month to finished the whole detail*
Sekarang berharap-harap cemas menunggu sidang akhir *huhuhu*
Dear mom and Dad, Wish me luck yach *semoga tak ada aral melintang pada saat sebelum sidang, sidang dan sesudah sidang*
Jerapah, thanks ya dah nemenin konsultasi dan ngasih semangad :P
Aminnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
Monday, November 23, 2009
new places
new places offer new hope, new dream, new wish, new neighbor, new job desk, new target, new deadline...
Hopelessly stuck in some new old places with the same old routine duty...
That old routine duty are no longer impress me, my enthusiasm left before i realize, don't have the passion to complete the mission, really want the contract over soon (ASAP)..
But still i had to finish this main job so i can fly my wings to some new places for some new adventure....
Hopefully before the end of year, this whole main job finish (no more bored and stupiudud revisi again)
Bismillah :)
Hopelessly stuck in some new old places with the same old routine duty...
That old routine duty are no longer impress me, my enthusiasm left before i realize, don't have the passion to complete the mission, really want the contract over soon (ASAP)..
But still i had to finish this main job so i can fly my wings to some new places for some new adventure....
Hopefully before the end of year, this whole main job finish (no more bored and stupiudud revisi again)
Bismillah :)
Good Bye
setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan....
Setiap perjumpaan cepat atau lambat akan menemui gerbang perpisahan...
perpisahan dalam segala bentuk sejatinya tak akan membawa rasa bahagia tetapi kehidupan harus terus berjalan ....
Perpisahan bukan alasan untuk menghabiskan waktu yang kita punya dengan bersedih...
Perpisahan tidak boleh dijadikan alasan keterpurukan semangat dalam menjalani hidup....
Perpisahan sejatinya akan melahirkan perjumpaan kembali di waktu yang akan datang tanpa bisa kita prediksi...
Yang bisa kita lakukan hanyalah menjalani hidup sebaik mungkin seperti biasanya....
Perpisahan tak ubahnya bak dua sisi mata koin yang saling bertentangan...
Perpisahan bisa jadi membawa kebaikan bagi satu pihak atau bisa jadi kebaikan bagi kedua belah pihak...
No matter what the show must go on...
Farewell my dear friend...
Wish u all the very best...
i am very glad to be your partner for the last two semester...
you are more than a work partner, bestfriend, bul bul partner, partner in crime ...
wish u all the very very very best....
Keep up the good work friend...
Pssstttt : i need bul bul :p
Dedicated for mbah neng omesh :p
Setiap perjumpaan cepat atau lambat akan menemui gerbang perpisahan...
perpisahan dalam segala bentuk sejatinya tak akan membawa rasa bahagia tetapi kehidupan harus terus berjalan ....
Perpisahan bukan alasan untuk menghabiskan waktu yang kita punya dengan bersedih...
Perpisahan tidak boleh dijadikan alasan keterpurukan semangat dalam menjalani hidup....
Perpisahan sejatinya akan melahirkan perjumpaan kembali di waktu yang akan datang tanpa bisa kita prediksi...
Yang bisa kita lakukan hanyalah menjalani hidup sebaik mungkin seperti biasanya....
Perpisahan tak ubahnya bak dua sisi mata koin yang saling bertentangan...
Perpisahan bisa jadi membawa kebaikan bagi satu pihak atau bisa jadi kebaikan bagi kedua belah pihak...
No matter what the show must go on...
Farewell my dear friend...
Wish u all the very best...
i am very glad to be your partner for the last two semester...
you are more than a work partner, bestfriend, bul bul partner, partner in crime ...
wish u all the very very very best....
Keep up the good work friend...
Pssstttt : i need bul bul :p
Dedicated for mbah neng omesh :p
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