Life oh Life

Life Oh Life ooo Life..... Dudududu...

Life is a bitch which I am sure that everyone knows about it. No need to sugarcoat about it

Not trying or become a bitter person or anything that everyone think of.

But that's the fact

Life is a bitch. Reallyyyyyy.

Sometimes you've meet those call family who treat you like a shit or the worst thing they treat you like some stranger who don't deserve their kindness or help.

Sometimes you've meet those call friend who treat you like their family or the best thing they treat you like you were part of them (family)

Yeah don't generalize people like that, but most of the time if you lucky enough, you've a lot of people in the last group.

Just like mine, although many times (countless) I've meet those call family who torture me (in their own way).

But I am lucky enough because I've been sorrounded by those call friend who treat me like family.

Lucky me ;)

الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ
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Sometimes

Sometimes people can be a bitch

Not most people in the world, but people who thinks that they know you the most

Imagine this :

* When you reach +25 and you still single (haven't see anyone in particular), people start make gossip about it. If they have the nerve, they will come and ask you directly why you are still single? Why you haven't found someone? Why you haven't got married yet

* When you already married but doesn't have a children yet. They will ask why you haven't pregnant yet? They will ask is it you are using the birth control? They will ask is it both of you are deciding not to have the baby just yet?

* When you already have one children ( a toddler) they will tell you : hey, your toddler is lonely now. Why don't you get another kid?

* When you have a baby, they will they you what to do and not to do list as if they were you.

And so many example I can show you how rude people can be.

How cruel people can be to you.

Just because my life doesn't run the way your life run, they think that I am doing things wrong.

My life is perfectly fine as it is.

Stop being a bitch for a moments and stop acting like your living my life


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Welcome to the world beautiful girl ;)

Hallo world ;)

I am the second niece. My aunty is tata tua ;)

I was born today

My name is Kazahra Febizardi

My Height 43 cm and Weight 1,9 kilo


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Hiperplasia Endometrium

After married for 7 months, i decided to visit Dokter Spesialis Kandungan dan Kebidanan. After consults and USG for a while, the doctor told me that i had Hiperplasia Endometrium. What the hell was that?


The doctor explain everything to me and give me a lot of medicine for me. The medicine are to stop the period, and after that stop and my next period are coming, that time i have to visit the docter again.


After went home and tell hubby every single detail the doctor tell me, we decided not to tell my parents because by the end of the month, they will go for UMROH that's why we'll keep it to ourself and tell them when we're home after UMROH.
  
I browse on the web about Hiperplasia Endometrium. Here's what i found about Hiperplasia Endometrium. 

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Gejala penebalan dinding rahim atau hiperplasia endometrium ini biasanya diawali dengan siklus menstruasi yang tidak teratur, bahkan terkadang menstruasi tak kunjung datang dalam jangka waktu yang lama. Bisa juga menstruasi terjadi terus-menerus dan volume darah banyak. Selain itu, penderita Hiperplasia endometrium sering menemukan noda-noda darah di pakaian dalam.

Jika dibiarkan berlarut-larut akan muncul gangguan sakit kepala, mudah lelah, serta tidak bergairah saat beraktivitas. Dampak yang paling parah, selain sulit hamil, penderita Hiperplasia endometrium mengalami anemia berat. Hubungan suami-istri pun terganggu karena perdarahan tak kunjung berhenti. 

Penebalan lapisan dinding dalam rahim dapat terjadi karena peningkatan kadar hormon estrogen. Peningkatan estrogen dipicu oleh pertumbuhan kista. Pada kasus lain, penebalan dinding rahim juga terjadi karena faktor ketidakseimbangan hormonal, ketika peningkatan hormon estrogen tak diimbangi oleh peningkatan progesteron.

Kondisi ini juga biasanya dialami oleh wanita yang bertubuh gemuk karena produksi estrogennya berlebihan. Hiperplasia endometrium dapat dialami siapa pun, baik perempuan yang telah melahirkan ataupun belum.

Terjadinya penebalan dinding rahim biasanya hanya bisa diketahui oleh dokter setelah melakukan pemeriksaan ultrasonografi (USG). Namun untuk memastikannya perlu dilakukan kuratase.

Hasil kuretan dinding rahim akan dikirim ke bagian patologi anatomi untuk didiagnosa.

Berdasarkan kajian medis, penebalan dinding rahim ini dibedakan menjadi 3 kategori:

• Simplek. Penderita dengan kondisi ini tak perlu cemas berlebihan karena Hiperplasia simplek tergolong ringan dan takkan berakhir dengan keganasan sehingga penderita tetap masih bisa hamil.
• Kistik. Seperti halnya simplek, kasus ini tak berbahaya.
• Atipik. Kondisi yang satu ini mesti diwaspadai. Atipik cenderung merupakan cikal bakal kanker.

Pengobatan yang bisa ditempuh adalah:

• Tindakan kuratase selain untuk menegakkan diagnosa sekaligus sebagai terapi untuk menghentikan perdarahan.
• Terapi hormon untuk menyeimbangkan kadar hormon di dalam tubuh. Namun perlu diketahui kemungkinan efek samping yang bisa terjadi, di antaranya mual, muntah, pusing, dan lainnya. Rata-rata setelah menjalani terapi hormonal sekitar 3-4 bulan, gangguan penebalan dinding rahim sudah bisa diatasi. Jika pengobatan hormonal yang dijalani tak juga menghasilkan perbaikan, terapi akan dilanjutkan dengan obat lain. 

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The doctor told me that this Hiperplasia Endometrium in me wasn't dangerous.  

Finger Cross ;) Bismillah ;)

A Year ago

One Year Ago today was a step ahead to our next big moments which is Engagement Days.

My Engagement Days was held on 28th May 2011.

I still remember how i felt on the that day.

A Week before the Engagement Days, everything was wrong in my eyes.

Every single thing was wrong in my eyes and to make it even worst : when i have a lunch at the office, i only eat half portion of my lunch ;)

The night before the Engagement Days, i barely can't sleep think about what would happen tomorrow.

The morning have been busy all day long prepare all the detail for the Engagement Days and when i see Him and the family come, i almost run to front door to welcome them. 

But unfortunately my aunty and uncle made me stay at the house and start threat to keep my blackberry the whole day.

The big moment finally come when Uncle Syaiful asks to me : 

Jadi gimana jawaban dari Andika atas Pinangan Abdul Rozak?

Dika : (maksud hati teriak bilang I DO) eh yang ada cuma ngangguk.

Lebih malu pas Om Syaiful bilang : seorang gadis itu diam adalah jawabannya. Kalo dia diam itu jawabannya. Nah ini andika mengangguk, berarti jawabannya SUPER SUPER IYA

Dan semua orang ketawa (refleks ngakak sama jawaban dika kayaknya) 

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Ah the Engagement Days always bring good memory and energy ;)

Good Bye Dear You ;)

After last night having #obrolanabsurdsamaabang.

We talk about the Miss Alien and end up with conclusion : just let it go and don't do anything ;) just watching from the distance ;)

Here some of my word about that :

How's can't I miss the good old days? Damn Surely I miss the good old days.

Us Together having fun and talk about everything & anything but it takes two to tango.

If someday you'll miss the good old days, you'll know how to find me ;)

If you want it, I am sure you'll find a way.

Just don't come up to me with some lame excuse ;) I don't need it ;)

Kinda tired with all that lame excuse you give ;) Its just not make sense anymore. Nothing make sure anymore.

If you want it, you can make it ;) Its all about intention ;)

But somehow I'll know the time come to let it go ;) and when the time is come, I'll make sure let it go and won't look back either ;)

If I amn't mistaken, your the one who keep saying please don't keep the distance, don't change. But you are the one who keep the distance and change ;)

Its take two for tango. ;) I'll let it go and won't look back for good. Good bye ;)

Take good care dear you ;)

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Forgiven but not forgotten

forgive but not forgotten yaps that's like a slogan in the movie but right now that's what happen in my life right now

Haven't see her after my big day and she is the last person on earth I would like to meet, just when I thought won't meet her, there she was. Friday 11 May 2012 I meet her after my weeding ;)

I don't know how and what should I respond with it.

She start to tell about her on going study and all I do just listen what she said without looking at her

I just can't help to pretend that everything is all right, not after what she done to me.

The last 10 month working for her was like working with the devil. Even the devil has its own mercy for others.

After short conversation (that's definitely not a conversation but listening all her story), I had a flashback from the past 10 month.

The night when relax after going all day long, I received a phone call and its from her.

She talks to my mother about her thought after talk to me on the afternoon.

She said : "Quoted from her : i want to talk with dika but I can't do that because of babo. I want to tell her just because we ended our professional but not personally. Forgive me"

Dear aunty I already forgive you but forget everything you've done to me its impossible ;)

Forgiven but not forgotten ;) 

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Older but never grown up

Everyone's get older, well that's the fact everyone know but some people never grown up just like him ;)

Well, let's just call him Mr Drama King because he was truly a Drama King because everything can be so dramatize when he said about something ;)

I know just a tiny bit about Mr Drama King.

Long story short, he started to live in my parent's house a couple month before I get married.

A couple month runs smoothly, he is acting properly as his age but doesn't take a long time to figure out how his true character.

Its started out when mom decided to have a new motorcycle.

The original idea is that bike should help everyone go to work (him and hubby of course)

Mom made a deal : everyone can use that bike and whoever use it should have take care properly.

Nothing happen until one day he came home after visit his family

Mom told him that hubby use that bike when he visit his family.

He said : It's fine with me but the problem is he (hubby) doesn't have a license (SIM)

When mom said hubby already have a license, he doesn't said a single word.

Since that, he was acting really childish (not properly act according his age)

Once when he goes to office with the bike (of course), he doesn't told anyone in the house that he goes to bandung and he left that bike in the office

When he get home, doesn't said anything to anyone. Not even a single word saying sorry I left the bike at the office and I don't tell anyone ;)

What's the hell was that (face palm)? 

What's the point?

Why is it he doing such thing?

Doesn't make sense at all ;)

Today he said to mom that his going to bandung and he left the bike in the office and someone at the office would take it home.

His defense that he already told anyone last night

meh,

On the way to mbah sapto's house, he just talking with kubilaikhan. He doesn't said a single word not even to me or hubby

Last night after got home from mbah sapto house, me, hubby and him wasn't talking at all.

He only chat with dad about the situation at his office

Meh what the hell!!!!!!

Of course mom and dad won't allow it, and mom said he left with angry (misuh-misuh things)

Yeah sure, some people just get older but never grown up ;)

Turns out that back at his place, his act is just the same as he at my parents house ;)

No comment if that's what happen there exactly the same as this place ;)

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It happen (again)

Owkey this thing happen (again)

This thing make me more frustration than ever before

First Miss Runaway, Miss Alien now Miss Primadonna

Somebody please tell me what did i done wrong...

What the hell was my mistake?

They just disappear in my life for good right after they have a new life.

What was that?

Its not like i am the jackass who want to ruin their life for good..

I won't do anything like that because they are my best friend

I am happy for them.

I am really really happy for them, for real.

I wish them happiness in their life....

They are my best friend and of course i really really want to see them happy with their new life. 

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I just want to know what the hell my mistake was?

What did I done wrong?

Can somebody just tell me what my mistake in front of my face rather than just disappear from my life for good without any explanation

There something just doesn't make sense for me, they all looking for me whenever they have difficult time in their life and desperately need someone to talk to, I'll be there for them no matter what happen ;)

But now as soon as they have their new happy life, they just decided to disappear from my life without any explanation and make me wondering what the hell did i done wrong?

Sigh

(Don't ) Change Please

Don't Change Please <------ I've still remember those word she told me before she got married

Back then we're close, might be not that close but we've shared a lot of happiness and sadness

Back then she was a nice companion, great friend, nice sister and everything i can imagine what i have if i have my own sister

Even thought we have up and down on friendship but i really thought it will last long

But then again who i am to dream about it

She's the one that says to me : When i got married one day, Please Don't Change. Please don't keep the distance from me.  

I keep my promise for not be the one whose change and the one whose doesn't keep the distance

For an incident that happen 25 Dec 2011, just want to say :

• Thank you for the the friendship and i really appreciate it
• Deeply Apologize if after all these time shared happiness and sadness, we've just a huge burden for you
• Deeply Apologize if after all these time we're not being a friend or companion just like you want us to be 
• It's a great honor to have you as a friend 

Adios Amigo Dear You ;)

Take good care of you & your family

If somehow in the future by any chance, you meet us in the street don't bother say hallo or chat with us because we've understand that you don't want to have anything or doing something that include us ;)

Don't worry we're not keep the distance with you, it's you're the one who keep the distance from us.

You make that huge wall between us buts that's OK. It really does

Just remember when somehow in the future by any chance, you think that you need us just remember its not us the one who walk away but its you the one who turn your back on us

Good bye dear friend ;)