Monday, 26 February 2018


Tell me how to forgive someone whose storm out all the hurtful and bad stuff to you?

Tell me how to wipe those hurtful memory in your heart for good?

Tell me how to react after that person ask your forgiveness?

Tell me how to get rid that painful image in your memory for good?

Tell me how should I let go all the anger and pain that I am feeling inside?

Tell me why I should forgive and forget that person mistake?

I don't know how to handle these kind of accident.

Just give me sometime so I can erase that image for good.

Maybe one day, you'll earn my love and respect again.

But for now, sorry to said that you've lost my love and respect for you.

It's not me. It's just you 😉

Friday, 16 February 2018

Forgiven but not forgotten

Have you lost your fucking damn mind queen Oslo.

After you storm out all of anger, hateful words and all. Now out of nowhere, you just call her and text on WhatsApp asking for forgiveness.

You expect her to forgive you that easily huh? Like that doomsday never happen 😅

Damn, you're so damn naive and stupid sometimes.

You just can't accept that she will forgive you easily and take you back like before.

Don't worry, she will forgive your stupid rant, hateful words and everything but don't expect things will back to normal just like that 😉

Hope you're not forget those hateful words and rant you've send to my WhatsApp.

Don't worry, you're save since I didn't have any intention to show it to them.

Oh right, you're forgiven but I don't forget every single thing you've said to me 😉

Sorry to disappoint you, but you've lost my respect and love 😉

Another Doomsday


The day that I fear the most are happens today.

Mom and dad already suffer enough since my divorce and every consequences that came with it

Dad have more than enough in his plate to worry about this stupid little stuff

Mom also have to leave with a fact that her daughter being left out by the cowardly ex husband

Now these, she have to accept the fact that her son has an awfully wife.

Today, finally see her true self. What lies beneath those beautiful, sweet little girl have an ugly personality.

She is yelling, screaming, throwing some stuff. She is being rude to her, right in front of Alka 😬

Sadly, I can't do anything else about it.

I am really really sorry mom and dad, both of you have to relive the same nightmare 😫

She even dare to accused me said a lot of bad word about her to mom. What the fuck !!!!!!!!!!!!

What's in it for me ?!!!!!!?!?!????

Hope one day, she'll regret every single thing that she said to mom and won't able to do anything about it

She remove me from every social media like path, Facebook, Instagram.

No matter how much you hate me, your husband is my only brother. Nothing she can't do to change that

Wednesday, 11 October 2017

blood ain't thicker than water

Whoever said that blood is thicker than a water probably never meet my extended family for sure.

Blood is thicker than a water means family bonds are closer than those the outsider. in other words, those whose related by blood (relatives) are connected more intimately than those who are connected by water (non-relatives)

Call me cynical or bitter, but that kind of conditions would only exist in an imaginary world. Sure as hell it does not exist in real life especially my life. 

I always know there is something about those people that bother me. Not sure what and why I am thinking that way about them since half of them is an older relative

I shouldn't never ever question their intention or even motive, yet I am questioning every single thing.

Now everything is clear, why the hell I am feeling and thinking like that.

Whenever there's sugar, most definitely you're gonna find an ant crawling to take that sugar with them.

The same thing when you're somewhere in good condition, everyone mostly will come and consider you as their family because they have ulterior motives

When they can't have whatever they want from you, they would walk away and that's true when you're in a really bad shape.

Well honestly, my family are in really bad shape for now and all those people whose said mostly fabricated nice things are gone.

When you're in nice life mode, suddenly everyone wants and need to be near you. They would say every sweet thing to you and vow whatever they want from you, they will have it whatever it takes to have whatever they want. 

Hell, they would sweet talk and pursue to have whatever they want. 

Once they realize that your life screws up and in a deep black hole. 

Once they realize that they can't have whatever they want from you, they definitely walk away from you and won't even bother to help you most when you need it the most

Even though you beg them to help you out, believe they won't even bother to help you 

So yeah I don't buy those crappy words ever again

Tuesday, 30 May 2017



These subject are highly sensitive for me so yeah I am gonna be very subjective on these. 

I am doing these because lately there's a new trend in Indonesia called Steal Another Woman Husband and Special note for a retarded lady out there: Don't worry you can keep and take good care of HIM forever. You might have to watch him from now on to make sure he won't do the same thing to you like he did to me.

Here we go with these painful subject: Infidelity or what most people know as cheating. 

As I said earlier that there's a new trend so-called Steal Another Woman Husband, make him leave his legal wife and Marry Him. 

Not sure what's happening with nut job woman who would hurt other females by doing that and called that act in the name of love (sacred thing being tortured by Hines act like that)

Come on, do you really think that you can't find any single male out there so you take an easy way by stealing another woman husband?

There's a lot of single guys out there you fall in love and can't live without but you choose the unavailable guy by saying that you are crazy head over heel about him.

Love might be blind but not that blind by doing everything (even the worst possible way to have the love of your life by all cause)

Honey, you might think that you won the battle since you got the prize (the married man) and happily married. To celebrate your victory then you decided to announce it public in every social media you have and the world just have to accept the fact. 

Oh dear, you're definitely clueless if you really think like that. 

Listen when you steal another woman husband, you're not just hurt that woman but you're also hurt her family (pretty sure she have group of people who care deeply for her like her parents (father and mother), sibling (brother and sister), her relative, her friends, her best friend.

Most of all, I bet it didn't cross your mind that somewhere near future that he actually would do the same thing to you like he did before to his wife. 

Come on, he cheated on his wife so he can make a new life to be with you and didn't occur to you that he would cheat on you to be with someone new.

I don't believe in karma. I believe when we did good deeds to other, we will receive good deeds too. The same thing when we did bad deeds to other, soon or later we will receive the bad deeds.

You will reap what you sow means:
  • Everything that you do has repercussions. It comes back to you one way or another. 
  • You cannot escape the consequences of your actions. What you do comes back to you. 
  • you will see the long term effect of your actions
  • What goes around comes around. 
Anyway back to the main focus, I want to share. 

Is it wrong if someone shares their partner infidelity in their social media? Is it wrong to shares the proof of their partner infidelity for everyone to know?


It's not disgrace/dishonor/stigma. 

They were telling the truth and expose the fact about the shitiest thing their partner doing (their partner infidelity) 

The one whose should be the shame if the fact proof does come out are their partner.

They already suffer enough about their partner, don't make it even worse by saying if they post it in social media means they are doing disgrace.

Just be a decent human being. Showing some empathy and sympathy doesn't cost you nothing.

Sunday, 23 April 2017

Nah Or Yeah

Nah or Yeah ?

Maybe these thing went too damn fast and maybe i was over enthusiastic about it

I mean the idea of start a new relationship with someone new. Someone whose obviously are the dream guy.

The idea of falling in love and start a new relationship might lead to happy ending thing

Maybe i am falling in love with the idea but not actually falling in love with the guy itself.

I hate it when i am in the super duper over thinking mode because whenever it happens, always ruin the mood and everything else seems useless

Can't escape and trying not to overthinking about it

Maybe i should take thing not so seriously and take anything personal.

When i can figure out everything about it, maybe the answer will change.

So for now, the question remain the same : Nah or Yeah?

Saturday, 15 April 2017

I Have a Crush on You

Yeah you've read it right

I Have a crush on him, maybe even bigger than I've felt inside.

As time goes by and get to know him a little more, definitely sure that he is a dreamy guy that might be to good to be true.

Although i ain't 100% sure how his reaction when we finally meet for the first time by the time he is visiting Jakarta

He is a dreamy guy that probably would never exist in world. 

Beside what i mention earlier in here about Romeo, almost everyday i found a sweet and good thing about him.

He is an amazing, adorable, big heart guy, gentleman, thoughtful and it will be a long list instead of a blog

Looking forward meeting him in person when he is visiting Jakarta. 

Can't wait to see him and spend some quality time