Damn right it's about
time to move on
It's almost 7 month
since the judge verdict that says my marriage are over for good.
Already done mostly all
the mourn moment like these thing (had to admit that itsn't my best moment)
- Don't know exactly how many night I've cried
myself until i sleep
- Hard enough to put a big fat smile in my face after
that hurricane storm in my life
- Hard enough just to wake up every morning and had to
pretend that i am still curious and excited about what the future
holds for me
- Hard to pretend that hurricane storm never bother me in
anymore
- Hard enough to pretend in front of everyone who know me
that i am totally fine and already get over it
- Hard enough for me to put a big fat smile in my face
every damn time i am around them (family and best friend) simply
because i don't want them to feel sorry or worry about me anymore
- Desperately trying to hide the fact that i don't have
any desire left to fulfill all of my dream comes true
- Simple thing like get out of bed or get out of the
house just doesn't interested me anymore
- I love food badly but right now all my
favorite food are plain and bored. Basically i just lost interest and
appetite on food (sometimes i skip breakfast,lunch and dinner).
- Suddenly going out from home is a torture and can't
wait go back home just to stay in my room
- Lock myself in rooms for unlimited days
- Don't interested anymore about socialized with new
people because i don't want them to felt sorry about my condition
- Feeling bitter about life mostly about love,
relationship and marriage kinda stuff
- Felt like damaged good
- Start to hate myself more than before
- Being too damn careful when someone new show
interest on me
- I made a vow about being single for life
- Social event is just too stressful because i don't
want anyone to ask the unnecessary question
- Felt lonely even when i am in the most crowded place in
earth
- Felt that i wasn't good enough for anyone and i don't
deserve to be happy
It's already 7 month and
it's about time to MOVE ON
Stop overthinking and
regret about the past because there's nothing i can do to change the past
CLOSED THAT DOOR FOR
GOOD
BISMILLAH ;)
