Sunday, 21 August 2016

Not For Me

I was looking for something
On the crime scene where you're in too deep 
I found a note with this number 
It's just another clue(it leads to you) 
I got a little suspicious, I got a feeling 
That you ain't true to me 
I should have known better than to buy your lies

You can fool anyone but I got eyes to see 
That you're not for me, babe

No No Uh uh 
Things will never be the same again with you 
No No Uh uh 
Now I know what it's coming to 
No No Uh uh 
Cause if you think that it's the way that love, should be
Let me tell you it's not for me

I don't want to be on, your screenplay 
Just tell me did you rehearse on me? 
I'll give you the story 
Baby, whose to win? Me or him?
Caught in the middle 
And I'm tired of your games of Hide and Seek
I'm getting the feeling that it's time for me to leave

You can fool anyone but I got eyes to see 
That you're not for me, baby

No No Uh uh (yeah yeah) 
Things will never be the same again with you
No No Uh uh(Oh) 
Now I know what it's coming to 
No No Uh uh (yeah-eah) 
Cause if you think that it's the way that love, should be 
Let me tell you it's not for me

Yeah, yeah 
I said no, no 
No way 
No no, No no 
No

I had enough of your talk, your games 
And it won't go away (won't go away) 
Justify my reasons to stay ( stay, reasons to stay)

No no uh uh 
Let me hear you say No no 
No no uh uh 
No no, let me tell you it's not for me 
No no uh uh 
Cause if you think that it's the way that love should be 
Well let me tell you it's not for me

No No Uh uh (whoo)
Things will never be the same again with you 
No No Uh uh(baby) 
Now I know what it's coming to
No No Uh uh (yeah-eah) 
Cause if you think that it's the way that love, should be
Well me tell you it's not for me
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I guess its too early to start all over again.The whole things about relationship wasn't for me.

Should've believe what my heart told me. It's too early to start a new relationship. 

I know and realized that i am the type who can't be alone without having someone beside me.

I am just trying to act tough, brave, pretend that i don't need someone beside me.

I keep repeating the magic word : I don't need man or commitment right now. what i really need right now are me time and lots of work time. It's time for me to work more harder than before. It's not the right time for having a man in my life. Now it's time for me times, family, work and friends.

But I've known better than that. I know and realized that i am desperately need someone beside me for everything. I need that special someone in my life to share everything from feeling, dream, goals and lots of things

But i guess that special someone still out there.

I don't complain about my condition right now and everything that happening in my life recently 

Sometimes i just miss having special someone whose gonna be there for me support every wild crazy dream i have, share every story or even daily stories with (no matter how silly or unimportant those stories), share the darkest secret in our past life, together doing the very best to fulfill our dream and having our little family.

Whenever i saw a young couple with their kids or happy couple whose expecting their children, i was a little jealous. Not jealous because their happiness but more likely jealous, anxious, guessing when will i have all of those.

Having my own little family just for myself. Having my husband and adorable little kids (probably two or three adorable and cute kids).

Until the times come, i am gonna wait patiently while doing the very best i can not to screw things up for the second time.

I am gonna make things right this time and won't let my heart do the same mistakes in the past

Until then its time for Me times, Family, Best friends, Work and having a little fun (I'll make sure nobody are hurts when i am having a little fun)